So, Its been a year since I began my hesitant (and then full on) affair with the Internet. When we first fell in love- I took pictures of our meal every night, and called it, 'What's For Dinner'. Uh, yep. (In my defense, I got a lot of comments! The most ever...) I thought that 'lol' meant 'lots of love' ! I superpoked my virtual friends. I begged my family to buy me a camera, and I've taken a lot of pictures. If I were to summarize my experience I would say: Photography enhances my reality. Real friendship will never be virtual. Playing Charades with your family will kick YouTube's ass.
Now that you know and understand the caliber of my genius...we can talk about how cool I am. JK.
My music plays alphabetically- sheez! Itunes.... how does that happen?!
Even the huge expanse of the internet can make you find out your mind is closing in on you. Imagine- a giant virtual world where you can learn about and look at ANYTHING! but somehow you keep looking at the same pages day after day. Its puzzling that the human habit of familiarity can even overcome the *genius* of human invention.
I suppose what I'm really getting at is that I still need to put curtains in the basement. I'm still writing out little '5 Year' lists on scraps of paper. I make out our family's monthly budget in pencil on folded and torn pieces of paper. Despite designspongeonline, craigslist, dooce.com- After four years I still feel ambivalent when I think about decorating our house. I don't have a cell phone. And my eyes still feel like they've watched a lot of TV.... even though it is the internet.
My family is sighing and saying, 'Duh!' right at this moment.
Maybe this whole internet thing was like a diet gone wrong- and all I needed was a Dr. Phil. LOL.
The bottom line?? There's an Archie Bunker in me and s.he's still not comfortable with Meathead.
My will is weak. Sorry Wendell Berry. Though I'd like for us to gather around the bonfire and talk some agrarian smack- I'll be drinking hard cider in the background, singing 'No More Mr. Nice Guy' and recanting the results from last night's Biggest Loser.
Life feels unnatural- and I'm sure you can relate.